Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Fight Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by quick stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe pain around one eye that lasts for several hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, excruciating pain around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical texts suggest bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major artery that supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the condition explain this.

In 1998, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.

National guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some people.

But consultant specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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